Downhill....

There are things we want in our lives
that does not happen according to plan.
You asked,
"WHY?"
"Why of all things ...
you just..
you just can't have what you want...
It hurts...
And you just can't do
anything to ease the pain...
Or for just a minute...
Lessen the pain...
All you can do is wait
the invisible wounds to heal.
As the time flies by...
I know...
I have to be OK...
I have to be."
And you just always say to yourself,
"I know GOD has a reason for all of these,"
the only HOPE I have.
A FAITH.

* i can still remember... i was very sad when i wrote this... it was really painful for me... i FLANKED the nursing licensure exam... the ONLY thing i asked from GOD... and He did not give it to me... i was so sad. i cried every night. for about two weeks... and sometimes i cry when i remembered it at that time...hhhmmm.. painful part is all of my friends/barkadas passed!!! i'm left!!! i'm not saying that i want them to fail just to make me feel better but, i admit, i'm jealous... and you know what... they just can't understand me when i just open up to them what i feel... that its just not easy to accept it... hhhmmm... right now... well, ready passed the exam... i'm a registered nurse...:) yet unemployed im happy still. i know i will have a job. hehe. looking back, i think i just learned not to give up... trust GOD... he will give it its just... not now.. i've become more understanding, strong and fight.... it was really a downfall for me... but when you fell... there is nowhere to go but up... you don't want to be stucked right?*